untitled....

today's weather
not bad
but
is a little bit hot for me

feeling good today
but
something make me frustrated
is kinda irritated
i hate that

dinner
ate at pandan
is nice
normally
I'll sweat because of the "samba"
but today
I felt like
i become a tasteless person
the hotness and spiciness
i can't feel it
hmm....
maybe is because I'm flu
so is good for me to take more spicy things

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a strange feel for me towards myself
i really don't know which one is the real me

feel that
i become....
i got two personalities
....
i like one of it
i don't like the other one
I'm trying hard to exclude the other one
but
my mind tell me that
i would fail to do so
because
it become more and more powerful whenever i try to reject it

is that feeling
that feeling of mine
towards you
instead of stop thinking of it
i got to accept it
for it is what i really want

I'm tired
tired of everything
everything that surrounding me
not because of family
not because of friends
not because of you
but
myself

I'm....
scared
wounded
struggling

feel like screaming
but the voice is stop by something
something that i don't really know what exactly it is
i really need
need that somebody
to be by my side
protect?
encourage?
love?

everything indeed....